Post by dslater on Sept 5, 2008 5:06:53 GMT -5
I currently have a Jonway 50cc an am 5'3. Also have Temporal Lobe Epilepsy and am struggling with post traumatic. They are probably going to revoke my license to drive a car so I had to get something I could ride without a license to drive. I say I live in North Carolina because I hate this place and was drug here by my parents at 11 years old and endured alot of cruel teasing as well as being rejected until I finally graduated high school and went to college and it didn't stop there either until I finally snapped and jerked someone off the ground appearantly because I found him dangling by his shirt uselessly from my fist, I don't remember touching him, ready to break his nose and shove it up into his brain killing him but I made myself drop him and got him arrested.
Well anyway I can ride ok but I'm having problems with engaging the fork because I've had some injuries. I might need to rest or sit if I feel sick or dizzy so I need to be able to engage the fork and was wondering if there was a trick to it or something else that might work or if anyone could give me a suggestion. My arms are strong but my legs are a mess. A drunken elk has better balance than I do. I haven't had a seizure since March and am taking medication to prevent one. I won't feel confident until I can engage the fork. The kick stand is no problem. I've been working out and will continue to do that because it relaxes me and gets me away from the crazy 90 some who has dementia and lives with us I don't know which is worse. I'm so clumsy I'd fail the field sobiey test and I actually did. Yet I'm determined to get this and nothing stops me once I am determined to do something. I'll struggle until I get it because I want my life back badly enough to risk this and badly enough to fight for it. Whenever someone tells me something is impoossible and I want it badly enough I work harder than I ever thought I could or anyone thought was possible and prove them wrong. My arm was almost ripped off and my knee is messed up and I been tortured until I was more than half crazy before any of this happened to me and I decided I'm going to beat it no matter how difficult or painful it is and no matter how many times I end up wiping out and nothing is going to change my mind not you people, not authority and sure the frack not epilepsy. I'm a survivor and I refuse to be a victim. If you don't like that too bad I'm done with trying to hide or fit in. So either get on my side or get out of my way if not I'll shove you down and step on you.
Well anyway I can ride ok but I'm having problems with engaging the fork because I've had some injuries. I might need to rest or sit if I feel sick or dizzy so I need to be able to engage the fork and was wondering if there was a trick to it or something else that might work or if anyone could give me a suggestion. My arms are strong but my legs are a mess. A drunken elk has better balance than I do. I haven't had a seizure since March and am taking medication to prevent one. I won't feel confident until I can engage the fork. The kick stand is no problem. I've been working out and will continue to do that because it relaxes me and gets me away from the crazy 90 some who has dementia and lives with us I don't know which is worse. I'm so clumsy I'd fail the field sobiey test and I actually did. Yet I'm determined to get this and nothing stops me once I am determined to do something. I'll struggle until I get it because I want my life back badly enough to risk this and badly enough to fight for it. Whenever someone tells me something is impoossible and I want it badly enough I work harder than I ever thought I could or anyone thought was possible and prove them wrong. My arm was almost ripped off and my knee is messed up and I been tortured until I was more than half crazy before any of this happened to me and I decided I'm going to beat it no matter how difficult or painful it is and no matter how many times I end up wiping out and nothing is going to change my mind not you people, not authority and sure the frack not epilepsy. I'm a survivor and I refuse to be a victim. If you don't like that too bad I'm done with trying to hide or fit in. So either get on my side or get out of my way if not I'll shove you down and step on you.
